Simple Wishes That Are Hard To Be Fulfill

What am I to you all...i want to know

2009-06-24T00:55:00.004+08:00

Hmmmm back but not sharing any happy experience like i always will do on my blog...do not really like to post unhappy stuff...but I have been thinking about the same problem be it primary till poly life...am I really such a bad friend? No I mean really...tell me what you guys feel about me i really have to know...

Sometimes the emotional side of me cries but the happy side tells me why are you crying? I should be happy that at least i have friends around me...but sometimes i really ask myself~ "Do I really have friends?" The last time i had my birthday cake was when i was 7 so when was the last time u had yours? Is a simple wish a birthday cake difficult for anyone? I seriously really not begging for a birthday cake but why is it so hard i always make time for all my friends during their birthday and mine just look so meaningless to you guys...maybe I just exist as john doe in your life...

I never back stabs, play games behind people's back, keeping every secret anyone tells me so what have I done to deserve any of these or am I living in illusions treating people as friend on my own will? Once during my secondary school I was called a "friend stealer" by one of my ex-friend I was angry at that time but to think of it now do they even treat me as friends in the first place?

Really wish you guys can tell me what's wrong about me any of you guys hate about me...tell me what you really feel about me...or maybe ask me what you want to know about me if you want to before you start making comments or conclusions about me give me a fair chance to start making friends...

SUPER update~

2009-03-12T18:39:00.020+08:00

Lol~ me the super lazy blogger is back~ Hmmmmm i m not sure of what i am busying with either~ Currently have a job as a facilitator in my holidays...well basically i have to bring devils to excursion (eg. sungei buloh, hort park etc) Ok then lets say about the days i am too busy daydreaming to blog~ LOLX

05/03/09(Thur)

I went to a tiramisu baking workshop to learn one of my favorite dessert...actually when i wanted to sign up during school period the teach in charge actually told me it was full~ But then 2 days before the workshop the teacher actually called me if i was still intrested and so i joined and baked my first tiramisu with my group on that day...=D

Nice Right~! Next time i bake for you all ok~ (but i no oven at home) =X

Then after the baking workshop i went back home to bathe and go out again to meet Justin and gang to have dinner~ But before dinner Tangs was having this 12% rebate discount storewide so i just went in with Justin and Kelvin to accompany this 2 rich guys to shop while i window shop =X

Well shopping takes up the boring time to wait for all to arrive for dinner lor~ Daniel suggested this cat theme cafe at wisma "Whisk" the food there is so Meowlicious~ =P Well i can say worth to try~ good thing we are all satisfied if not it will be on Daniel's tab LOLX *wink wink*

The menu cute right =D

Mine and Victor's "Timmy's Fish and Chips"
It says the batter contains beer~ Drunk~ lolx~

Justin and Kelvin's "Rosie's Roast Chicken"
Tasted a bit from Justin~ very tender~ =P

Harry's "Izio's Aglio Olio"
We all thought that it looks like the princess spaghetti in 4bia LOLX~ but who cares it taste good claimed by Harry lolx~

Lastly Donny and Eric's "Oven-Roasted Snapper"
Look damn good can whole snapper fillet warpped with bacon then oven roasted...sure very nice de lor cause they eat until never share with me ='( LOLX~

07/03/09(Sat)

Eric's new house needed some help so i volunteered to help out painting =D there was Harry and William and Eric's 2 nieces also haha~ i guess we were too busy so did not took much pictures...

Me and Willian painting the kitchen.... is the only picture we had people in it~ LOLX

Soon came the night and we are so HUNGRY~! however pathetic KFC and McDonald's needed 1hour+ for delivery =.= so we turn to the coffee shop below eric's house...

Ok~ guess what is this side dish~ you must be thinking "Pai Gu Wang" right~ But this is actually "You Tiao" in sweet and sour sauce...but it taste Damn GOOD~! =D

We also had "Yi Mian" and "Hor Fun" which taste equally GOOD~! must go eat again LOLX

08/03/09

Hmmmmmm~ We was suppose to meet 2pm at Tamp IKEA to go look furniture with Eric but hor end up only i and Donny appeared cause something cropped up then all late lor~ LOLX nevermind since all was late and i never been to IKEA Donny went exploring with me lolx~

Started off with Giant supermart then Courts megastore then had to go meet up Daniel at IKEA when we just made ourselves comfortable on the sofa area in Courts~ ARGH~ lolx...we actually played around the soft toys area at IKEA LOLX~ Hmmmm did take some pictures but they haven tag me~ but even so not going to post them here LOLX~! then around evening all had arrived and start shopping for furniture...other then shopping for furniture it is also William's Birthday~! We had our dinner at IKEA Restuarant and finally i get to taste the legendary Swedish meatballs~ =P

Birthday Boy's Black Forest Cake

The Legendary Swedish Meatballs
Love the cranberry sauce, sweet and sour~ Mmmmmm~

Chicken Wings~

Harry's "Combo Rice Set"

Me, Justin, Daniel and William's "Poached Salmon"

Donny and Eric's "Chicken Thigh"

All of that added together = FEAST~! *gobble gobble* =P

Wah finally finish writing my "SUPER update" post...ok so maybe i should post often so i do not have to think so hard about what happen in the days lolx~

Gain & Lose

2009-02-17T10:58:00.020+08:00

Hows valentine(14/2/09) for everyone? I again was single on that day, however i got my bunch of friends to accompany me...started the day off by meeting up Ray, Harry & Eric to accompany Ray collect his book from some lucky draw which he do not even remember when he participated in LOLX...then we continued with Eric's plan to have our dinner at The Cathay's Billy Bombers...after meeting Kelvin there...

Ray & Kelvin shared the American Seafood Platter

Eric's Surf & Turf

Harry's Sirloin Steak

My Billy's Original Ribs

Then after dinner we headed off to watch Chin Ching Singing performance at Kovan CC's White Tangerine...started off with a bitxh waitress which insist on waiting for me to order before she walks away...and so freaking thick face to ask for chocolates which ray wanted to give us~! ARGH~ nevermind her we still enjoy ourselves...

After his performance we went to had supper at MacDonald...wanted to go pub to have a drink but in the end all no mood then ended up toning at Chin Ching House lolx...

The Day After(15/2/09)...

Today is Mr Justin's plan...its kinda the last dinner with Ray till he comes back from Cheena from studies...we will miss you Ray~ LOLX

Started off at Clark Quay for some gaming session @ The Mind Cafe...free flow drinks + unlimited games from 2-7 only $8.50...next time bring you all go okie~ =D...we played Sabotager, Telekinetic, Taboo, Apples on Apples, Jungle Speed and Ugly Dolls...the mood was like bored to exciting lolx...

Took some pictures before we started with the games~ =P

From the new edition of Taboo...cute right haha

Gaming in progress~

After the gaming session we went for dinner...Justin brought us to the Martial Arts Theme restaurant 风波庄 which is totally cool...we are address as 大侠...menu is the 武林密集 then dishes called 吸心大法,九阳神功 etc...lolx...

Best friends Justin~

两肋插刀...LOLX

Bwahahha~!

Back Row : Harry, Donny, Kelvin, Chin Ching, Justin
Fornt Row : Eric, Elton, "ME", Ray

Then is good bye Mr Ray...miss you kaes lols...but u also coming back on July during your holidays very fast de la...一路顺风 orhs~

Yesterday(16/02/09)

Went back to ponggol clinic to see the face doctor...$74 heart pain~ ='(...waited 1hr+ for the consultation then when it was my turn it took less than 1min...what the hell right...haix nevermind next time i be the first to stand in front the door when they open...LOLX

Cleanser, cream & pills...74 bucks~ *sniff sniff*

Life Facts

2009-02-13T12:01:00.014+08:00

Wednesday(11/2/09) i had no school since most of the modules had been covered...so meet up with Justin, Donny and Eric for dinner at bugis...well I on budget so i just went there to accompany only lolx~ =X

After dinner we went to 记得吃 to have some dessert while waiting for Harry to come haha...

Justin : Mango Sago
Eric : Walnut Paste
Donny : Yang Zhi Gan Lu
"ME" : Ying Yang (Almond & Black Sesame Paste)

Justin was so good to treat all of us...Thank You Justin~! lolx =P

This is my Ying Yang...so ugly rite~ i thought it would have the ying yang shape =/

Then when Harry arrived, Donny had to go as he was rushing for something which i oso forgot le LOLX...then we accompany Harry eat his dinner lor...*stares* LOLX =P

We just chatted a little about our problems in life...i learn a lot that day...i find 1 sentence they said very meaningful "people can pity you, but you cannot pity yourself" although i do know my family problem was actually my fault but maybe i just do not want to do anything to make it better...however my friends just give me more time bah...i know you guys are concern about me...but with all of my friends now is enough for the moment =)

ECP cycling again~

2009-02-10T20:35:00.014+08:00

Bwahaha~ after NRA outing i never thought i would go cycling again...Justin organize a cycling outing on Sunday(8/02/09) since he have not much time until he leaves for Switzerland for further studies...well i turn up late as usual...but heng got Justin, Gary and Titan to accompany me =P

Then after having breakfast at MacDonald we head off to rent our bikes~ The journey is the same...Start - East Coast Park - Changi Village - East Coast Park - End

Before starting the journey...=D
(From Left) Ray, ME and Justin

stopped by the traffic light =P
(Red)Justin, (Orange)Eric, (Green)Donny

Took a little break at a pier halfway on the journey =P
(Back Row) Mark, Gary, Donny, Harry, Justin, Hai
(Front Row)Titan, Ray, "ME", Eric

Then we had a chicken rice feast for lunch when we reached there but too bad i forgot to take the picture haha...then at night we headed to town to had dinner...chatted some red hot topics before we headed home =X

Footie Star...LOLX

Upon reaching home my sunburn starts to act up le T_T...why did not ray insist i smear on some sunblock =X

Ouch~!

Hidden Side...=X

2009-02-06T13:45:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was our last NRA training till after exam haha...i found it so fun yesterday the most not stress and broken one lolx...after training all was so hungry then we pass by a buffet leftover outside LT74 guess what...all just took the drinks and food without permission lor~!!! BUT~...some student committee from the talk inside come out and say if you all wan takeaway also can~ O.O This is when we see the auntie and uncle spirit inside them LOLX~!

busy scooping did not even care about me =/

DON'T MOVE~! =X

guess we do everything as one bah...hehe...*cheez*

Exam coming le worhs must study ar and good luck~! =D

Update...Update....

2009-02-02T22:36:00.025+08:00

Since i was spamming my friends to say i was bored Hui Ying suggested i update my blog...LOLX. Hmmmmm then I update last thursday after my NRA training we went to King Albert's Park(KAP) to celebrate wei ling's 18th birthday...what makes me so jealous is her friends made her a photo album with their group pic and birthday wishes from them...good rite~ friends of mine i am really not trying to hint you all...really...REALLY LA~! but then hor compared to my 18th birthday... haix dun say le later you all say i naggy...LOLX

Photos~ (29/1)

Our Birthday Girl Wei Ling~! Happy 18th Birthday~

(From Left) Zhi Zhong, Andy, Mikhael, Wen Jun

(From Left) Gina, Wei Ling, Chansee

ME~! and Ephraim

Kai Xun(Left), Shawnald(Right)

Long Lost~

2009-01-29T13:11:00.016+08:00

Hiya...long time no blog le...coming back finding out my tag board actually turned into a advertisement board for porn and housing properties...LOLX so i replaced it with a cbox instead =D

Hmmmmm things to update lets see....

New Year (1/1)
We crash Lester's house again...some small drinking session and watching jackass(so sick) LOLX

Lester's Birthday (18/1)
Hoho...we finally can take our revenge the xxxhole...leaded by Karen our mastermind being blindfolded to a grass patch and being snowed with coffee powder and flour and attacked with 2 pails of water bombs by us HEHE~

Ok la at least he got a hot bath at Karen's House...See so many people help prepare his birthday spaghetti

Lets' Eat~!!!

Zi Hao Birthday~!!!(28/1)
Latest post bah...yesterday only lol~!Celebrating my friend's friend birthday lor~ lolx very kpo right but nevermind la i want to be a social butterfly LOL...Happy Birthday Zi Hao...we had cozy birthday dinner at billy bombers at century square...

Birthday Boy's Route 66~

Rendall's Lamb Shank~

My Betty's Roasted Chicken Hoho...

Happy New Year & Happy Chinese New Year my FRENZ~! =P

Learn~ Conquer~ & Acheive~

2008-12-28T23:23:00.010+08:00

Woah Woah Woah...yesterday was my first outting with the big family NRA...Chin organized a night cycling at east coast...total force of a huge 90+ turned up ^_^ (freshie, junior & senior) we started off by meeting at bedok bus interchange at 5pm...as all people on the list had arrived we got on 401 which turn out overtaken by us LOL~!

Reaching east coast park is free time till 1030pm...we splited up and my group went to had subway for dinner...as most people that knows me long enough I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO RIDE A BICYCLE >_<...after dinner we went to rent our bikes...for the first 1 hour me and KK finally learn how to ride a bicycle...YIPEE~! then on the way to the jetty i the amateur rider crashed~! =.= but the whole process was only saw by gabrille =X and the scratches was also attended by gabrille and sheryl...upon reaching at the jetty...i was so happy or touched as the whole group was worried about about me getting hurt...you guys are the best~!

Before we head off we sang birthday song to Ken, Ben and Xiao Qiang...then we ride off to reach our first checkpoint SAFRA...

Then our second checkpoint at some expressway Ore suggested something crazy which we all 90+ people lie on the road and took the picture O_O...well do not worry the expressway is yet to open yet =X

After 4hours of riding we finally reach out destination CHANGI VILLAGE HAWKER CENTRE~! everyone is super shag can...some had nasi lemak before riding back to east coast as some of us left on taxi...

After some rest we headed back to SAFRA...but guess what...WE ONLY TOOK 45MIN ON THE WAY BACK~! LOL guess all of us was homesick...compare the 2 SAFRA pictures you can notice how shagged we were...

I am really glad that i went for the outing...i learn how to ride a bike, falling off the bike countless times and most important the friends along the whole journey i received so many JIAYOU JEREMY~! and made more friends which i previously don't really know...all the bruises and scratches are worth it and hope to go out with everyone again...I LOVE GUYS...I LOVE NRA~!

Continued...

Sorry la i know i super loso...but hor after sleeping reaching home i had to go to work at 5 =.=...but upon working i got a fish bone pin which is given to the staff when they receive a compliment...with that i kinda find a bit more strength to work LOLX =P

Merry Christmas~!

2008-12-27T13:47:00.006+08:00

Christmas~! We start the day by waking up in the afternoon seeing all of us squeezing in Karen room...felt cozy haha...when Karen came brought out back from her church she bring this chocolate waffles Tim Tam to fill our tummy...sound funny but quite nice lol...we all finished it within 2min lei that =X

Then near evening Karen's parent ask if we would like to join them for dinner...since all of us do not have plan we went to east coast hawker centre...it was really good of her parents ordering bbq wings, oyster omelet and satay for us its very delicious =P while i had lor mee LOLX...

After dinner is like free time for us as her parent go walk walk so sweet right~ Then we sat down at the side of the sea for some peaceful moments...Karen took some pics for us...which is so LOL~!

Then heading back to Karen house after dinner some crazy idea pop out~ "Why don't we ton out 1 more day~" We end up toning at KaiXun place...Lester brought his vodka peach and we had a drinking session (i did not drink...got work the next day) the next day was a disaster for me...I ACTUALLY FORGOTTEN I MEETING MY IAC GROUP TO DO THE PROJECT =X...JunJie, ShiYun and Chong Wai so sorry ~!@#$%^&*

X'mas Eve~ =P

2008-12-26T23:46:00.009+08:00

Hmmmmmm this year christmas eve i decided to do something more meaningful...i went to help out King Kok in his I&E module...he and his group decided to go to Jamiyah Children's Home near eunos MRT...

Well the children there are all malays age ranging 8-20 bah...well we started off by reaching there 8 (erms i arrivied at 9 =X) coz i am a 路痴 >_<... k nvm den at 10 me, zhi chong and pau yuan group up with some of the kids to prepare to play amazing race with them...it was very fun and happy for me to see the smiles on their faces while they played the games at all the stations...

At all stations the children get to earn stars...and the 2 group in the end with the most stars get to go into treasure hunting and find the grand prize...proudly my team alpha made it into the finals with delta lol =P

The final round was tough haha...1st was to past cups of water to fill up a 1.5litre water bottle...den going through a box of envelopes which only 3 has the pictures clues that leads to the 3 rooms...lastly out of the 3 room only 1 has the treasure hidden in it...in the end alpha did us proud and won the grand prize...YEAH~! =D

But what make me sad is the grand prize was actually some football jersey, tidbits and calculators...HMMMMM WHO THE HELL WANTS THAT FOR 1ST PRIZE~! is whats on your mind right but they were so happy...i almost cried can (sorry la i dam emotional de)

Then together with the other people i gave out mini candy canes since it was Christmas eve...when everything ended the children all thank us for everything we did for them but i really think we did not do anything much for them because they were the ones that have touched us and that was the end of my children's home visit...

X'mas Eve...CONTINUED

After the visit King Kok friend Kelvin drive us to marina square to meet up with the others...but end up only 1 joined the others for plans to countdown till Christmas haha...Before we had our dinner we went to arcade to play some games =P below are Wen Mei, Evelyn and Lester LOL...

We had our dinner at JustNoodles/JustAcia then at night near 12 we rushed to orchard for the countdown...BUT~! end up counting down in the bus =.= and HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVELYN lolx~! den on the way to cineleisure we saw "The Streets" which performed together with us at Danzation...arrived at cine i decided to give out the extra mini candy canes i had...BUT~! no one wants it from me lor (must be i DAM UGLY~!) nvm la i accepted that long time ago~ *sniff sniff* but together with my friends i managed to gave it all out haha~! Oh ya forgot mention giving bigger candy canes which i brought especially for my friends =P

Then karen brought up the idea to ton at her house...we took MRT to bishan then find out we need to walk a long journey X_X...we stop by PRIME supermart to get some stuff to munch at her house...reaching her house at 3+ we decided to watch "money not enough 2" but in the first 20min i already fall asleep cause too tired le haha...

To Be Continued...LOLX

23th Dec BBQ~!

2008-12-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

Wooooo finally after danzation got time to hang out with my secondary school friends is like 2months ago i saw them lor *sniff sniff* lolx...

I got to work so i did not pei them go buy food nor prepare the food with them the day before the day of BBQ...but all the food was prepared by our future chef JING XUAN haha...

Then today after work i "rush" over to pasir ris to meet them lor...i so concern can LOLX...den kinda dunno eugene lim descrition of the location of the bbq pit so i was escort to the pit by jeremy tau lol...den at there jing xuan was cooking most of the food for us hungry ghost...but we cannot win against nature too the drizzling so irritating can...rain & stop so many times and we only gt 2 umbrella...ela ela eh eh...ok stop~! LOL so funny can is like 6-7 share 1 umbrella but so pity i forgot to took the pic lor den cannot show you guys~!!! But below are some happy moments of that day =D

DANZATION BLAST~!

2008-12-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

Since most of my friends have blogs i thought i can create one too...and making 1 after danzation is over is the best cause i can express all my love to all you guys~!!! Hmmmm...maybe i can't express the love in words too haha~

Yesterday was our last day and last chance to show all we got in danzation 08 i am so gald i did nt miss any steps...i never thought i could perform in stage again cause the last performance i remembered will be primary school in a play after PSLE and i was the lead actor can LOLX~! I don't know about others but it was like a dream come true for me...at first going for NRA audition was to prove my friends that i can get through and learning some dancing...but going through so much for almost 1 year in NRA i really learn a lot...different dances and most importantly true friendship...

All my friends was there around when i needed them...be it while cleaning steps or lepa after lessons...to say by realize any changes in my mood and asking me whats wrong is what no one ever did before i know you guys

Seeing the seniors cry i really wanted to cry...but i think the joy inside me overcome it and stop my tearing but i really could feel all NRAs...really THANK YOU...I LOVE x 1000000 YOU ALL

I will update again for danzation once i get back my photos little by little...=D